To a destiny to paint my Blue Sky with Pink

In this last July I had completed my 24 years journey in this diverse world. My life runs through a several kind of path. Sometime that path was too smooth and sometime it was tough. But I never failed to walk. Some time I walked alone some time I got so many companies. But I never stopped for a second. Today I stacked in some illusion. I know I have to run a long path. But my destiny is moving away from me day by day. I can’t do anything. Every day my path is moving toward to a desert just to find out a drop of water in some endless mirage.

People never get everything whatever they want. But it is really very painful to see that you are losing every whatever you already have. As a human being I also like to dream. I never dream about anything that is not possible for me. I am losing those dreams now and becoming an insomniac day by day.

People say I am always a coward boy. I have a question to those people that is this really a symbol of courage to take a decision without considering anything, which can affect somebody’s life? If your answer is yes, then I am really coward. And I want to be a coward person for life long to make somebody happy.

Standing in this situation I am really very confused that when I can get rid from this hallucination. Anyhow I don’t want loose those thing which I already have. But can I win this struggle to keep them in my feelings, to place them in my hearts? Or again my luck will defeat me. I never fear to struggle with my luck. Several times that betrayed with me and pushed me far away from my destiny. But I was able to come again in normal flow. But this time it is really very difficult for me to come in that normal flow. I don’t want to lose. In this mystified life I am missing my Mom and Dad a lot. Because they are the only person who always gives me hug when I dream about some wrong, and I get scared after that. I know I can’t change my dream and I don’t want to change that. Now the question is will I achieve my dream or I will be lost myself in this everlasting destiny?